I have been married for almost four months. During those four months, I have often wondered if I am a bad wife. Today is one of those days. I wonder if I am taking good enough care of my husband. He likes a clean house, good meals, and a loving home- exactly the same as all other husbands. I have the loving my husband part down, I love him- a lot. But right now, our house isn't as clean as either one of us like. And I'm not cooking much because A) I still haven't found the majority of my kitchen and B) we don't have any food in our fridge. So in my eyes, I am not properly providing for my husband. He works all day, and in appreciation, I should be able to provide a clean household and a nice dinner. Even in my dream last night, I was not able to provide this for him. *sigh* So I wake up this morning, already feeling like a bad wife. And I have all day long to worry and stress about it until my husband comes home tonight, at which time I should, again, have dinner and a clean house waiting for him.
My insecurities do not stem from my husband being unappreciative to me. Last night, he told me how much he appreciated me being home when he got there, and doing laundry for him. He does this frequently- several times a day. I know that my husband appreciates me. But am I showing him proper appreciation and love if I do not provide the things a stay at home wife should provide?
My insecurities do not stem from my husband being unappreciative to me. Last night, he told me how much he appreciated me being home when he got there, and doing laundry for him. He does this frequently- several times a day. I know that my husband appreciates me. But am I showing him proper appreciation and love if I do not provide the things a stay at home wife should provide?
2 comments:
Don't be so hard on yourself! I am sure your husband thinks you are a wonderful wife. I have tagged you: http://melissaclee.com/?p=223
Oh silly! you're a newlywed, and it takes time to know what you need to do, what you want to do, and what just has to be. :) You'll get a routine, and things will be easier- on all levels!
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