Shot Down Again- Twice This Time

Shot down again- twice this time

I woke up in a great mood. But I'm not so happy now. Two things come to mind right away when I think about why.

I received an email today. Okay well I received a few of them, but one in particular. It's from someone I have been going way out of my way to make peace with. I have apologized, been understanding, and done everything I can think of and everything that has been suggested to me to make things right again. Well today, I got chewed out for it again. *sigh* I know that there are still wounds and hurt, but the way it is being handled is frustrating. I just don't know what MORE this person wants from me. ~A little side rant, they didn't even write the answer to me. This person copied a blog they had written somewhere and pasted that as the reply. So not only is it apparently all over the internet, they didn't even have the decency to type out a new reply to me.~ I am beginning to wonder if I am fighting a losing battle. I am always having something new thrown at me and told some other reason why I am a terrible person. Maybe what they want is just to win. Who cares about making peace, they just want to have their pity party. That's not saying they don't have reasons to hurt, but who doesn't? It's beginning to seem that this person only wants the drama of holding something over my head for the rest of forever, and couldn't really care less about moving on.

I took the placement test. I aced the reading part, and I failed the math part. Just like I expected. But it still stung a little. Anyway, I set up the appointment for Orientation and to see my counselor for a schedule. Then I got more bad news. I wasn't being approved for InState tuition for summer. I will be approved for fall, but not summer. I guess I will be waiting for fall to start. Then the next bad news came, the FAFSA form. I was asking if I needed to include my parents income, since I have been on my own for so long, and was told no. But then she told me I DID need to include my husband's income. Well I was concerned that I made too much last year to qualify for financial aide, now that I will be including Selos income too? I'll never qualify. Selo makes enough alone that we may not have qualified if I wasn't working. (Keep in mind, this is all going on what I have been told, since I haven't had a change to turn the form in yet.) I called Selo and he said we would make it work. It's important to him that we both get back into school, and we are going to sit down and- again- talk about finances. (We do this about once a week. This is how we are able to keep our bills straight, stay on top of things, and budget so tightly.) Since we didn't need my income and we have everything tight enough that we can live on Selo's- even with all of his deductions- I was going to quit and go back to school full time this fall, and Selo was probably going to do night classes a few nights a week. But it looks like we will be re-evaluating.

This blog turned out a lot longer than I had planned. I guess I needed to talk more than I thought. Anyway, I am going to take a short nap before my husband is home from work, and then get ready for a night of gaming. Selo told me we are going to play tonight and I have to lose myself in the fun. I'm sure I will feel better later, I just needed to vent a bit and get some sadness out.